The big story in the news is the Johnny Depp and Amber Heard’s defamation trial going on right now. Are you watching it?  People are wondering if Johnny Depp is being honest. Amber Heard hasn’t testified yet.

When I watch Depp testify, I see a man whose demeanor is very calculated. He is methodical in choosing his words and acting in a very controlled manner.  This flags me.  Why does he have the need to be so controlled?

When I listen to the recorded audio segments played in court of Depp and Heard arguing, I hear a very different demeanor from Depp. Of course he is mad (in the clip above), but this “calculated and methodically” personality is no where to be seen. It means we aren’t seeing an authentic Depp in one of these places.  You can pick which one you think is authentic.

When people are honest, they don’t need to control anything. So for me, this raises big red flags.

In the video clip above, I see many elements that give me pause and concern.  It’s clear Depp doesn’t have memories of multiple incidents because he was under the influence of drugs or alcohol.

It’s notable to me that he can’t remember the TV breaking. He thinks there was a “cup” or a “plate” stuck into it? Those are pretty distinct items to not be able to differentiate in memory.  He can’t remember which it was?

Ouch.

Would he then remember hitting or harming someone?

When it comes to the discussion of the penis drawn on a painting, I do believe Depp doesn’t remember drawing a penis on a painting. I’ll give him that! He gives supportive evidence he doesn’t remember.

When the attorney questions him about the penis painting, and says, “Given the state you were in, it’s entirely possible that you did that even if you don’t remember it to this day, correct?”

I love how Depp ignores the question (very common for him), and then tries to act like he does remember what was important to him.

Depp says, “Drawing a penis on a painting wasn’t the first thing on my mind.”

You have to laugh: That’s an ego statement like, dude, I don’t dream of penises. But it is also, to me, a form of control. It’s appears to be a need by him to change facts to suit him, which always raises eyebrows for me.

He continues, “I had messages…to, uh…write.”

Messages?  Really? Is that what you would call this?  Isn’t this manipulation? Gaslighting? Isn’t he painting himself in a light that doesn’t fit with reality?  Do you know anyone who could call defacing a lamp or property leaving “messages”?  It’s ridiculous.

For me, it is playing with words in an attempt to manage and control the situation–to change the narrative.

When you are honest, do you need to do this?

No.

People who do this? They typically can’t be honest with themselves let alone others. They are also often very toxic.

The attorney goes on saying that Depp wrote grievances he had with Heard, and Depp says, “Reminders”.

Listen, if you want to be taken seriously and honestly, admit what you’ve done. Don’t twist and turn the picture here to try to hide from it. Everyone can see it here.  Depp defaced stuff here so own it. Don’t tell us you wrote “reminders”.  That’s babble and nonsense.

When further questioned about the lampshade, Depp ridiculously says of defacing of the lamp, “Yes, I thought it was good advice.”

It’s good advice to deface lamps and put messages on them?

Please help me. Depp is telling you who he is here.

In point 6, in the video clip above, where Heard rattles off all the abuse she claims to have endured, I would have expected Depp to cut her off, disagree, or argue if it was nonsense. I find that noteworthy that he didn’t. I wish this clip didn’t cut off here, though! Is there more of this clip that is noteworthy? He could have just walked away–you can’t rule that out. I can’t tell by the short clip. I’m curious now! If he engages with her after this and just ignores it, it’s noteworthy.

Later in the clip above, Depp talks about looking through a doorway to see Heard’s foot injury (I’m not sure the whole context of this segment). He then says the door hit him smack dab head on in the forehead (because she kicked it in).  I’m trying to figure how that could happen. If you are bending down in a doorway, looking at a toe, and the door is cracked a jar about a foot as he says, how does the door hit you in the center of the forehead as he demonstrated?  I could see it being kicked and slamming into the side of your head (crushing). But how does a slightly ajar door hit you and bounce off the forehead as he says? Unless he was looking at the door and not her foot? Strange.

He even smiles as he says it.  Why would he smile here? It’s odd.  Then he says he, “was completely taken a back by such a…a…a…a., corrosive…..horr..ific move.”

That’s dramatic, don’t you think?  Or did he have serious injuries from this that I don’t know about?  He doesn’t seem to show or talk about any emotional pain from the experience. It sounds like it was a serious bruise to his ego however.

Throughout his testimony, we see this arrogant smugness, smirking and smiling on Depp’s face.  Arrogance is a belief  that one is superior. Superior people put themselves first always!  Nearly 100% of the time. It always alerts me to pay close attention that this is a very self-centered person.

We then see a video of Depp saying “You want to see crazy” as he pours a bottle of wine. When asked about the incident, the attorney says, “You were violent in that clip, correct?”  Depp replies, “Um…clearly I was having a bad…time.”

Really?  No, that was a rage fit. A violent emotional outburst where he lost control. He can’t admit it.

What can he admit then?

Depp is then asked if he was drunk in that video clip and he can’t admit it, either.  He says, “There is a possibility of that.”

You cannot pin down this man to answer directly on anything! And yet he wants to point the finger at someone else and hold them accountable?

In his testimony, Depp admits that he gave a pill to Marilyn Manson, “so that he would stop talking.”

YIKES.

This is an arrogance in a person that feels superior to others and will do whatever he wants to make himself feel better regardless of how it affects them.

While it is not appropriate to rage and yell and scream at a man as Heard did, I can certainly understand she was dealing with a brick wall who twists and turns and changes the narrative. That will make any person crazy.

Do you see a pattern here? A pattern of not answering questions directly?  A pattern of not taking ownership of his bad behaviors?? Of twisting things to change the narrative? Of not remembering events?

Is this a person you would find trustworthy?

I certainly don’t.  I would not feel safe in the presence of Depp behind closed doors ever.

I will share my thoughts on Amber as well once she testifies.