If there was ever a soft place to land after the shenanigans Sarah pulled, she found it in Oprah. Throughout the entire interview, I kept getting flashes of Rielle Hunter when she sat in the presence of big O. It’s like both women created alternative ways of dealing with reality. Hunter painted everything sunny when in reality it was dark and gray, where Sarah seems to disassociate herself from her scheming alter-ego, as if it were someone else and not her. It was bizarre.

Read more“Thank you for showing me [the video] because, actually, I felt really sorry for her,” said Sarah referring to herself as she watched her behavior playback on a small screen in front of Oprah.

Another time she said, “I believe from this I freed Sarah from the treadmill of her life, really.” Isn’t that a twist?

The disassociations kept coming and coming. It was surreal.

When I watched Sarah, I didn’t see a person who was sorry for her actions. I saw a woman who was trying to convince us all that, well, yeah, she messed up, but it was due to drinking, too much traveling, abuse, self-loathing, and whatnot. The excuses kept coming…

“I think I was so out of control with desperation to the point where I’d reached no return of helping my friend with the $40,000. Sort of out of my mind,” said Sarah to Oprah.

Sort of out of her mind? She is clearly hedging, saying wisps of what she knows she should, but she can’t quite claim it. I wondered, at times, too, if she was under the influence of something, because she didn’t even speak coherently. Could she have a drug problem of sorts?

“All I can know is that it happened and now I have got to go forward. Find a way forward as Sarah,” said the Duchess.

If that doesn’t hone us into what is important to Sarah, I don’t know what will: At the end of the day, it isn’t regret or remorse for her actions or owning up to what drove her.

When Oprah asked her if she was drunk, she says no, but when Oprah asked her what she drank, she couldn’t recall if it was wine or OJ. Sarah knows what was influencing her, she just doesn’t want to say, like an addict protecting their vice. I was also tired hearing about these so-called “friends”. They were a convenient excuse, too. Her sincerity in this interview fell like a brick from the 10th floor.

Its one thing to make a mistake. We can all forgive people for poor decisions in times of desperation, but when people continually walk down that path of desperation and refuse to face the music or ask for help, and dig themselves deeper with loads of B.S., we owe it to them to say STOP.

Look and listen to what you said, Sarah. Listen, read and watch your denial. Hear your words of nonsense, because if you don’t, it will only compound your problems. From where I see you sitting right now, you are on the edge of a cliff. You can either turn around now and get help, or risk falling to desperately new lows that will make you remember this pillow Oprah gave as a gift that you failed to take.

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